Why am I here with her alone? You would think I'm talking about my mum, but no. Not this time. I'm sorry, grandma, but this morning started with "have a cup of coffee with me" to "why are you so tired, you don't do anything..", and all of the other discouragements you like to throw in my face like how I'm not looking for a job, I don't want to go back to school, I'm letting myself go.... Thank you for reminding me of how much of a failure I am. I really don't need you to tell me. I know. I don't think I can even handle a job, and full-time school at the same time. I couldn't even handle high-school. I loved being home-schooled. You suggest online classes, but I failed every last one of them, because I need the one-on-one. You forget I'm Schizophrenic, and think it's an act. I know you're older, and don't really understand, but I'm still struggling with it, and yet--I have to act like everything is okay.  Ya, whatever.... I know you're just looking out for me, and all, but the way you say these things don't make me feel so great.